Sobering

hiya pplz. I guess sometimes there's just somethings you have to forgo for the better. So yeah, scratch my earlier post and enjoy life as you should. Don't let something hold you back from exploring the world out there. Haha, I guess you can say I'm sober. xPxP
anyways, there' no better song than " Over You " by Daughtry. Awesome song with awesome lyrics. Have a listen then :)

"Over You"

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

that's all I have to say. Ciaoz people!!

-darrenkhoo
signing out

Fight for what you want

Hi.. yeah it's me again. I'm sorry but I'm kinda emo-ing right now ( hence the topic ). Then again, I have been emo-ing alot lately. hmm... I guess the math equation is ( EMO = DEEP BLOGGING )
haha cool. anyways i've been doing alot of soul searching lately ( EMO )... I guess I seriously dunno what I've been doing lately. Rushing into things without thinking rationally, going through the motion in college, watching each day pass by without doing much. I really need some inspiration in life. But everyone goes through this patch sooner or later anyways. So I guess it's my turn then.
I must say that lately I've done really stupid things. Horrible things that I must apologize for. I'm sorry if i hurt anyone in any way 'cause I didn't really mean it. However, there is something I want and I'm gonna hurt a few people along the way to get it. Again, I will apologize but I will still fight for it until I do get what I want. There's just some things where you need to fight for what you think is right. I ain't backing down anytime soon and hopefully one day I do get what I've been searching for. ( At the end of the day I just hope I don't get hurt too badly...)
You guys have that thing that you really want and you wouldn't stop at any cost 'till u have it? It's that thing that you really need and you just can't make life meaningful without it. There's a part that tells you each and everyday you wake up that " hey, it's another day and look at yourself... you need to get up and do what's right ". Yeah, I guess that's what I've been going through lately. Though I need to admit that probably my heart talking and not my head. It's 'cause my head begs to differ and wants me to walk away before i 'cause too much trouble. yeah, that was bout 1 week ago. Fast forward another week and I guess my head is starting to click with my heart. Finally they're on the same page. But the question now is really...
" Are my head and heart a lil' lost in their own fantasy world? "
Gosh, I need guidance at times. I have my CG leader and friends to do it and I really appreciate it. But I guess there's just some things where you need to go to your room or walk to your nearby park alone... and just ask GOD himself. I've nvr really had a deep conversation with Him yet but maybe I might just do it tonight. For all you know, He might just have the best and probably simplest solution to all the problems. Maybe tomorrow onwards I can wake up peacefully and go on with life with Just a Lil' bit more Meaning... Maybe.. HOpefully !!
So yeah, if you're having any trouble whatsoever and no one seems to understand or maybe you just don't want them to understand.. and you REALLY need someone to talk to, seriously..
Talk To HIM!!
It's a 24/7 free physiotherapist. Phew.. I think I emo-ed too much today. Let me look at the happy things that have happened this week. Hmm... I got a 15/15 for my essay homework the other day. Amazingly, seeing as my teacher rated the SPM level of english at a 4/10 and college is at a 8/10... which quite simply is double the amount. Thus, to score a 15/15 I thought it was quite awesome. i thought maybe it's be a 12 or so but o'well I'll take what I can get.
Oh and Freshie Night was pretty awesome. apart from the unlucky person who vomited after playing the games and this group of ppl right in front of me who kept taking photos from the moment the event started till it ended. xS I think they took about 100 photos in 2 hours... literally... :P
I've got tests coming up next week and it's gonna be vital in my seeking of a scholarship. Need to get back to books ASAP and study. But how am I gonna concentrate if I'm distracted by something else?!?! AAARRGHH!! no, I shall say no to "emo-ing". I better get off the comp before it gets worse.
Till the next one peoplez!
--darrenkhoo
signing out
P.S. Chelsea v Arsenal this weekend ! you gotta catch it live. MU to be at the summit of the EPL by the end of the week. hahaha !!
ciaoz

College Blogging

Hiya peoplez... there's actually not much i have to say right now. It's just that this is gonna be my first time that I'm blogging from in college. haha, yes I do sound like one with not much life right now but o'well... I might as well make full use of the facilities as and when I can. Anyway, I gtg now... transport's arriving. ciaoz pplz

-darrenkhoo
signing out

Be who you are

Hi you. Yeah, you the one who's about to spend another 5 minutes or so of his/her life reading this post. I hope you don't waste those 5 minutes. xP
I was thought in English class about skimming and scanning. There was this short explanation on how the 'title' gives the introductory to text you're about to read. Amazingly, a title is said to be the shortest summary of the text.. I never really saw it that way. Anyways, as you can see from the title above.. you're in for another treat of thoughts from dkbw for the day.
Okay, I used to think that playing scrabble is great and all. I mean, it is. More so the fact that I'm quite good at it. But every time people start talking 'bout their superb achievements, I tend to shy away from expressing my talent in the game.. thinking probably it's a nerd game and people might get that perception of me. Hence, I don't really mention it in front of strangers.
However, I must say that as time passes and I become more matured in these sort o' things I realised that there's nothing really to be embarrassed about. 'Cause it doesn't matter that what they think. Seriously... if i'm proud of it and wanna show the whole world then I should, I shouldn't let what a few small people hinder me from what I like doing and am proud of.
So, nowadays I do tell people about it (when asked of course). But that's not really the point. It's the general overview that's really important. This exemplifies the need to just be yourself and not let anyone else decide who you truly are. It could be anything...
--talking 1000 words per minute
--playing computer games and being somewhat of a geek
--doing stupid stuff from time to time
--being very lame in public

there's really no end to it. We all have our many flaws but it's those flaws that make who we are today. We should be proud of it 'cause it differentiates us from the crowd. Your friends and family wouldn't love you if you weren't the way you are. So seriously, ignore those idiots who think otherwise and condemn you for who you are. they're not the kind of people you would wanna hang out with.
So from now on, let's all be who we really are and keep this world going. Oh and off the record, I think the theme song for my life right now is " if you come back in my life" by Blue. haha, maybe i'll update you on why so the next time. I'll see y'all then.
P.S. Freshie Night is on tommorrow at 7.30pm where all the freshmen go out and celebrate our first years in the college. I hope for it to be a blast.
Ciaoz...
-darrenkhoo
signing out

Changes / A whole new World

Hey peoplez... yeah it's me again. I don't know why but I just had the feeling of wanting to share on this today. Anyways, so let me begin the epic tale....
You know how everyone experiences change every once a while? A big one or small one, doesn't matter. But surely or not it will come and hit you on the backside. Hopefully you're able to stand up again before the next hit comes and knocks you out.
Well, as I transit from secondary school life to college life I guess it's quite a big change ( well at least for me personally ). But after awhile, you realize that it's not that big a change after all. I mean, everyone goes through it so what does your change make it any more special than the rest? You're just a small fish in a very large pond who is going through what we all know as "life".
But then I think to myself again, yeah sure I'm no one to this world. But I am someone to me and to my loved ones. so I should take concern for myself and don't look down upon myself. It kills self-esteem actually.
But this transition into college life is just an overview of the small lil' things that have happened to me in 2010. I'm sure all of you have your own lil' changes in 2010. It could be...
-having late night chats till 4am for the first time
-getting into a relationship
-helping your friend get into a relationship
-having your best buddies all in a relationship and all working it out together
-shifting to a new place
-having to let go of someone you care for because they're shifting somewhere
-teaching your siblings in their studies
-having to sacrifice things for something better
-having to be a bit more mature when it comes to making choices and vital decisions in life
-learning how to be a lil' bit more obedient even when it comes to the lil' thing 'cos you might just get your phone confiscated xP
-taking up more responsibilities
-learning how to adapt to whats happening around you

yeah, there's so many to list down. If I were to list them all down, I don't think it'll ever end. So yeah, changes here and there. how do you cope with them? Well, one of the few ways is to get help from friends or family. I mean... they're the ones who will always be there for you no matter what. They'll support whatever you do and that's what matters and all you need.. a lil' love and compassion from someone toward you.
So yeah, these challenges are merely stepping stones of the greater things to come in life. You have to realize that everyday as you wake up, it is and will always be a whole new world. hehe.. I've been listening to the song by Kris Allen " live like your Dying". It's quite good actually, both music wise and lyric wise. Appreciate what you have now but never get too stuck with the present. There is still the future to look forward to. Just so you know, there are 86400 seconds in a day. What are you doing with your 86400 seconds?
Long story cut short. Changes will always be there, it's how we look at it ( isit for the better or worse ). I can simplify it in this way....
Adapt to your changes and work it out, so that you can enjoy the present... create memories for the past and pave a way for an exciting future. x)
anyways, that's as much wisdom as you can get from me today ( if there was any... haha )
till the next one peoplz...
-darrenkhoo
signing out

P.S. Someone once told me...
" A person is wise if he loses what he cannot gain and gains what he cannot lose ".
hehehe think bout it...

Ending the 2nd week of college

hi you. Yeah i've abandoned my blog for abit. sorry, still getting used to the whole college thing. Well, I'm glad to say I'm enjoying it so far. Loads of new things to learn though I must say my math subject is really undermining my math skills (with no intention of blowing my horn). I realised I actually studied add math for two years for nothing really. -sigh-
Other than that, I guess the other subjects are still okay. Economics is still a new adventure, english is interesting whilst the rest haven't got going yet. all in all I think it's quite fun. Made many new friends, so I guess that's a positive sign. :)
Oh and I learned so many new things in college. Like for example, there's so much more to see in the library other than books. hahaha ( i'm not talking bout the other facilities xPxP )
Tomorrow's gonna be the last day of the 2nd week of college. Looking back, I think i've done well enough to survive. No trouble in school, no "over embarrassing" moments, doing well in class and making friends. I' d give myself an 80% on performance over the past couple of weeks. I hope I can keep it up throughout the year.
Oh and I'd like to share something with you. Today we had a session of presenting your life achievements in english class. there's this one guy in my class name Alfred whom I think is quite cool and hilarious. Well, one of his achievements was how he parked his car in a hotel. He went on to do his stuff and about 8-10 hours later, he came out. His ticket was supposedly to cost him about rm20+ but he took a new ticket at the entrance and paid rm 1 only ( if im not mistaken ). He kept the old ticket for memories.. hahaha. a lil' cheating but very smart. xP
anyways, i'll wrap that up for now. I'll see you guys soon. take care
--darrenkhoo
signing out

it's a new year

it's that time again where we all celebrate a festive new year in anticipation of all the excitement there is to come within the year. I hope y'all had a great countdown last night. I can already see the headlines in my life. A new College, SPM results to come, new friends, WORLD CUP 2010, yet another birthday and so much more. I should be having butterflies in my stomach, no? hahaha, yeah probably so. But it kinda keeps me motivated too, so all in all its good. This is probably the first time in my life I'm doing this but I've made a To-do list for the year 2010. There's 15 things in all I hope to accomplish this year and hopefully I can look back at it come 31st December 2010 and be proud that i've completed that list. Maybe you should do one too. There's no harm and it might drive you to go to greater heights in life. It's a suggestion. :):)
And in case you didn't know, MU swept aside Wigan 5-0 the previous day. It is only a matter of time before MU bag their fourth consecutive BPL title and hopefully another Champions League trophy.
hmm... since I'm so free now I'ma comment on the whole Tiger Woods scandal. It's like what 14 women already? that guy really did impress me. I thought of him as an icon though I didn't really watch golf. The fact that he cheat on his wife anf family and in the manner that he did it was simply unexcusable. One slip-up is bad already but 14 slip-ups? haha, that's just plain gigolo turn playboy. Too much Too much. He's removed himself from my "people I admire" list and I think I speak for loads of Tiger fans too. Such a shame yet I hope he'll be ok and his situation will resolve soon enough. All the best to him.
Speaking of sports, I watched the ESPYS2009 for the first time ( right don't ask me what ESPY stands for because I don't know either ) and it was quite cool actually. It's kinda a way to reminiscist on all the sporting events that has happened throughout the year and to award the accolades where it is deserved. As expected, Michael Phelps won the sort of "best Sportsman" award. I liked the " best match " though. It was a competition between the "nadal vs Federer" Wimbledon final, the "superbowl finals showdown" and a basketball match. All were great games, the basketball match had about 6 overtimes if I'm not mistaken. I mean, have you ever seen six overtimes in a basketball match? That's really something. And the 5+hours epic final showdown between Nadal and Federer. Phew, that's all something you really shouldn't miss and lastly the Superbowl final that went all the way to practically the last second when the team won. The whole nation and parts of the world were watching that one. It was awesome and was duly awarded the best match of the year.
So yeah... I've been prety much drowning myself in TV and computer everynow and then. I think I have to go off now, it's 2 o'clock in the morning. I'm learning the "According to you" solo by Orianthi. I hope I can play it by the end of next week. hehe
O'well, I guess I'll see y'all next time. Have a great year and my lessings to you all.

-till next time
darrenkhoo
signing out