Fight for what you want

Hi.. yeah it's me again. I'm sorry but I'm kinda emo-ing right now ( hence the topic ). Then again, I have been emo-ing alot lately. hmm... I guess the math equation is ( EMO = DEEP BLOGGING )
haha cool. anyways i've been doing alot of soul searching lately ( EMO )... I guess I seriously dunno what I've been doing lately. Rushing into things without thinking rationally, going through the motion in college, watching each day pass by without doing much. I really need some inspiration in life. But everyone goes through this patch sooner or later anyways. So I guess it's my turn then.
I must say that lately I've done really stupid things. Horrible things that I must apologize for. I'm sorry if i hurt anyone in any way 'cause I didn't really mean it. However, there is something I want and I'm gonna hurt a few people along the way to get it. Again, I will apologize but I will still fight for it until I do get what I want. There's just some things where you need to fight for what you think is right. I ain't backing down anytime soon and hopefully one day I do get what I've been searching for. ( At the end of the day I just hope I don't get hurt too badly...)
You guys have that thing that you really want and you wouldn't stop at any cost 'till u have it? It's that thing that you really need and you just can't make life meaningful without it. There's a part that tells you each and everyday you wake up that " hey, it's another day and look at yourself... you need to get up and do what's right ". Yeah, I guess that's what I've been going through lately. Though I need to admit that probably my heart talking and not my head. It's 'cause my head begs to differ and wants me to walk away before i 'cause too much trouble. yeah, that was bout 1 week ago. Fast forward another week and I guess my head is starting to click with my heart. Finally they're on the same page. But the question now is really...
" Are my head and heart a lil' lost in their own fantasy world? "
Gosh, I need guidance at times. I have my CG leader and friends to do it and I really appreciate it. But I guess there's just some things where you need to go to your room or walk to your nearby park alone... and just ask GOD himself. I've nvr really had a deep conversation with Him yet but maybe I might just do it tonight. For all you know, He might just have the best and probably simplest solution to all the problems. Maybe tomorrow onwards I can wake up peacefully and go on with life with Just a Lil' bit more Meaning... Maybe.. HOpefully !!
So yeah, if you're having any trouble whatsoever and no one seems to understand or maybe you just don't want them to understand.. and you REALLY need someone to talk to, seriously..
Talk To HIM!!
It's a 24/7 free physiotherapist. Phew.. I think I emo-ed too much today. Let me look at the happy things that have happened this week. Hmm... I got a 15/15 for my essay homework the other day. Amazingly, seeing as my teacher rated the SPM level of english at a 4/10 and college is at a 8/10... which quite simply is double the amount. Thus, to score a 15/15 I thought it was quite awesome. i thought maybe it's be a 12 or so but o'well I'll take what I can get.
Oh and Freshie Night was pretty awesome. apart from the unlucky person who vomited after playing the games and this group of ppl right in front of me who kept taking photos from the moment the event started till it ended. xS I think they took about 100 photos in 2 hours... literally... :P
I've got tests coming up next week and it's gonna be vital in my seeking of a scholarship. Need to get back to books ASAP and study. But how am I gonna concentrate if I'm distracted by something else?!?! AAARRGHH!! no, I shall say no to "emo-ing". I better get off the comp before it gets worse.
Till the next one peoplez!
--darrenkhoo
signing out
P.S. Chelsea v Arsenal this weekend ! you gotta catch it live. MU to be at the summit of the EPL by the end of the week. hahaha !!
ciaoz